Err my bad side.
Today, im just so selfish. I want to do our thesis alone. You see, a multitude of (unique?, disagreeing, incoherent) ideas isn’t useful all the time. It’s just getting on my nerve, and the down side is that I have to pretend (i so hate pretending) that everything’s okay when it is not! I just didn’t want to stir misunderstandings so you know, i had to give way to this creatures just so I can end fourth year without so-called enemies. Right, that’s just so gradeschool.

We’ll be assigned in ust’s mental institution for our next shift. In line with that, our rle group had to undergo this sensitivity session our what some call Johari’s window. So this unusual friend of mine commented that i am becoming indifferent at times. In response to that, I said that I will try to resolve my indifference and look for another defense mechanism. Today, on the second thought, apathy just so rocks. Nothing beats detachment. So I guess it will be hard for me to (uberly)”care” when the situation just calls for it. Because if i do care or notice or acknowledge these irritating things that my system just cant take, I will only be back to my paranoid self.

Don’t get me wrong. It’s really nice to have classmates, groupmates, and of course, friends, but sometimes, you just have to do away with arguments. It makes the world a lot more of a better place.

Sigh. I want to burst. (in anger? or disappointment? or everything else? i so don’t know.)