apparently, ive been venting out my rants since yesterday.. bad days are just so “in”… .ok. so people do change, but why does it freak the hell out of me?! i mean, comeon, why do you people have to change at the same time, at this time? it’s just so weird! so itago natin “sya” sa pangalang amsterdam (he is a good friend by the way, and i just feel for my other good friends who happen to be his umm..admirers).here’s a background:

before, amsterdam is one of the leading philo class-”cutters” just so he and his friends can play DOTA overtime.

now, he actually turned down our peer invitation of watching a movie this nursing week because he doesn’t wanna cut. COMEON!now, WE, the goody-goodies who never did cut, plan to cut in the name of One More Chance. tsk

before, he’s one of the late-comers who’d ask me or his seatmates for announcements and hw and stuff he missed, but–

NOW, i mean a while ago, he just signed the receipt for our class shirt record (i was the one who’s supposed to sign it but i was apparently busy chit-chatting) and he even kept the class list that i was supposed to keep for tomorrow’s collection! but then again, he’s turned into some responsible guy i havent known since first day of class..before, he doesnt care bout floats, and parades, and school stuff

NOW, he even asked me to help in the making of our float because he was actually gonna help, but i decided to go home nalang cos it’s 6pm for heaven’s sake!

and the list goes on….! HE HAS CHANGED! WHY? because of this girl he is denying to be courting, who’s active in school stuff, and who happens to be my friend/acquaintant from the lower batch.

so deny all you can, but im just saddened by the fact that my other friends are taking some toll of that. it’s breaking their heart:( i know you have all the free will in the world, im just shocked as they are for this sudden transformation of yours. and are you aware, my dear, how you take us for granted? us–your true friends, who happen to love you unconditionally. it’s platonic anyways, but still!

true enough, you’ll never know their worth unless they’re gone. (include me there)

i am happy for you, amsterdam, don’t get me wrong. i want you to change. in a good way. it’s just hard to explain..

personally, change is just scary. and sometimes, hard to accept..

so im changing too, apparently. not just as freaky. haha. im more of, adapting in the keenest sense possible.

and one last thing, amsterdam, we’re not literally asking for your gratefulness for all our thoughtfulness and care and all that, we just hoped that you appreciate the immediate people around you. so that’s just about it. goodluck in that blossoming love life of yours while i try to keep company my friends that you apparently termed “just friends”.

so our professor in Med-surg cited that broken hearts literally break and grow some anatomical hole on it, which is baaad. it’s a psychosomtic sort of thing. also, broken-hearted people DO go insane. the mind is a powerful mass, you know. DISTRACTIONS of all kinds will be very helpful. getting a support system is one of which.

so i thank my friends